for one who's lost
I give you my words
I've been there before

19.3.12

Alone or not, is an option

when people are talking

about their needs
about their problems
about their undone matters

people speak to each other

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    there are no rules
                   that anyone should go on through anything
                                                                  by themselves

    there are no wisdom
                   that such things are better 
                                                   if it was done with no assistance

    there are no prophecies
                    that one who does such things alone
                                                               would achieve more than ever





alone or not
is an option




you may choose
or you may not




all it does not matter

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do remember!                   .

that you don't have to choose something                        .
by yourself                  .


you don't have to decide the hard decision                    .
by yourself                 .





only if you were strong enough
to dull the pain





you can share things with anyone



if you couldn't let anyone interferes
let someone knows






"you don't have to do this alone....."
    the words we often hear
    in the movies



15.3.12

Losing Faith

   my days..... just keep getting better

                  I remembered my old promises
                         one of them:

                                             not to easily accept people's kindness
                                             until you can give one yourself


                  and everyday I thought
                         I was never gonna be good enough

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and just when I believe I did something good

when I believe, I'm worthy enough to get praised by myself





something was taken away from me
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I'm not sure.....          .
what to believe anymore          .


Is god trying to tell me           .
that not everyone is good?                                             .
that deep inside men,                                                      . 
       sometimes...                                                    .
it's just plain BLACK?                        .


or maybe I can be a little optimistic                        .

that god was testing me                                .

or maybe a punishment                                  .
that I should not be so happy yet?                         .



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I'm losing faith

I used to believe.
GOOD THINGS will come to those who had a bad day

not the contrary
not this





at this day
I DEFY GOD




I don't know what to believe anymore
good or bad
you gave me the best
      which I couldn't understand